                          Poem for Izzy

I miss you so much I taint the air around me in sorrow
I look at your picture only to know you have no tomorrow
Time to make things better from what they are today
Time to see things change for you in every single way

I know your hurt was way too much to bear
I also know the many people you should have known cared
Now all I have is your pictures and memories to guide my will
Memories of your morgue pictures and hung cord to make me ill

There's not a day that goes by that I don't see that expression
My last memory of you hanging out a window until your final regression
I ache for your company and for memories of your suicide to cease
All that I hope for is to wake out of this dream and hold you, at least

Nightmare after nightmare I go after you before you jump
Watching you tie that cord around your neck crying in your endless slump
That girl wasn't worth your life to end, this is nothing but true
Now that your gone she lives her life happily without you

No sorrow fills her eyes, no tears does she still shed
She dates the one she cheated on you with now that your dead
While the ones who loved you most miss you and ache relentlessly
They have questions left unanswered,"Didn't he think to call me?"

Now all those who truly loved you are left with great loss and sorrow
No longer waking up to see you apart of their tomorrow
We miss you and all that you believed and stood for
Knowing we lost you because you made the mistake of loving a whore

I cry no more for the way I could have stopped you
But for the personality you had and the funny things you do
I sleep at night and dream of you there
For I know this is the only way to show you how much I care

I've put your soul to sleep with the angles who now guide your rest
I do everything in your name and make sure I do my best
Through all the events that have taken place I find my strength
I know you are with me through all I say and think

So now I leave this poem with all I have to say
Knowing I will see you again someday, someway

"Dedicated to my nefew Izzy 6-4-77 to 9-16-97 I live for the day to see you again"



